I just cant believe that you are 29 years old, Heidi.

I just never ever thought we would be apart for so long.

Time slips away quickly these days.

It seems like it hasn't been that long and you kids were little

and we were having the times of our lives.

And now...here we are...you left before us...

that wasn't supposed to happen.

I would have never believed that would happen in a million years...

but I was so wrong.

I will never ever stop wondering why.

In the blink of an eye we went from being a happy family

to being sad and lonely without you.

That's something we live with now. Its something we have to endure.

I can only hope and pray that we can all be together again

when we all leave this world.

That's what keeps us hanging on.

So many pieces of our lives are gone now.

If it weren't for Scott, I don't know what we would do.

 You have a good brother, Heidi, but you always knew that...

you adored your brother.

I talk to you all of the time Heidi...do you hear me? I always pray that you do.

I think I am still getting signs from you...but I am not

positive. I like to think that they are from you.

I sure wish we were together right now...Saint Patrick's Day, Your Birthday,

and Easter all all this very same week.

We had so much fun on all of those occasions.

I wonder what you would be doing, of course, and what you would look like.

I know that you would be still beautiful, but how would have time changed you?

Would you have been married with children? Somehow I really think that

you would have by now. What beautiful children they would have been.

I think of you every day, Heidi. I still cry a lot when I am alone.

I try to be "alright" when I am around people. I know that they can't understand.

Just know that I love you with every breath that I take and every beat of my heart, Heidi.

I will see you soon.

Happy Birthday my Darling Daughter.

All my Love for Eternity,

Mom