Dearest Heidi...we can't believe this is true
aren't you still here? Its your Birthday and you
supposed to be here with Daddy, me and Scott.
heart is with you, my darling daughter...
will always be my life. I will always think of
every day...not a day goes by that I don't think
still after all this time...there isn't a day goes
by that I don't cry.
you...you are my only daughter.
I need you more than I could ever put into
that you would have had some Grandbabies for Daddy
by now...I picture it often.
we would have had...unbelievable!!!
started sewing again. and got some special fabric
Hong Kong...and when I opened it, I cried because
pictured you in this beautiful dress made from it.
didn't think it would be soooo beautiful!
gold with beautiful colored dragonflies all over
even could picture you in it.
looked so beautiful in everything, and I loved
sewing for you.
has been so good...so understanding...
wishes you and I were together...
he is a
good man, your Daddy.
Sometimes I wonder...what will happen to this site
someone take it over and keep it up?
want you to be forgotten, Heidi...not EVER!
even bare the thought of it!
hard to believe that you are 27 years old now!
know where the time has gone!
know how much I miss you!
can never be the same without you, Heidi.
even imagine what it will be like
are all together again...You, Scott, Daddy and I. I do know
will beautiful, and it will be for eternity.
You are my love...always and for eternity,
We keep a candle burning in ever window for
you, my love.
I will love you for Eternity,
Can it really be six years since we
celebrated your 21st Birthday, Heidi?
Why does it seem like just yesterday?
The joy I felt watching you and your
Mom sitting together...
opening your presents at your surprise
its a vision I carry in my heart.
Those days were supposed to go on and on...
the laughter and the joy that was still
who could see it all come crashing down in
just a few short months?
The many dreams will remain just that...
dreams of what might have been...what was
supposed to be.
Its hard to picture you as a 27 year old
probably married, and with how many
I often dream of the joy that would be in
as we all gathered for Holidays.
If I could, I would trade places with you
I would be happy knowing that you and your
Mom were still
together...laughing and sharing your
your children running around the house on
or hunting for eggs on Easter Sunday.
The joy in our house could only be
imagined. And perhaps
I could still be watching.
Dreams...that is what remains now.
Dreams that cannot come true.
Dreams of what was to be.
You will always be in our hearts and
So...Happy Birthday Heidi...
in our hearts and minds you are celebrating
and you will always be no more than a thought
God, Make them remember that today is a
them understand that the memories don't go away.
them to listen while I share.
them so they may never know my pain.
them to know that my Heidi's life
them to remember,
Heidi was here so we could still celebrate.
To understand that I
still feel the nearness of Heidi.
To see beyond my smile,
and the words, "I'm Okay".
Please God...let one
is a Special Birthday!!!
Its my Heidi's Birthday,
and that's very important!
She is a part of us, and
she always will be!!
Happy Birthday Heidi!
In a quiet
Where the gentle breezes blow,
Lies my Heidi we love so dearly;
She died a few years ago.
Her resting place we visit,
Placing flowers there with care,
But no one knows our heartache,
When we turn to leave them there.
Though her smile is gone forever,
And her hands we cannot touch,
Still we have so many memories
Of the daughter we loved so much.
Her memory is our keepsake,
With which we will never part.
God has her in His keeping;
We have her in our hearts.
ask me if I'm over it yet.
I'll never be over it.
PLEASE, don't tell me she's in a better place.
She isn't here with me.
PLEASE, don't tell me you know how I feel,
unless you have lost a child.
PLEASE, don't ask me if I feel better.
Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.
PLEASE, don't tell me at least you had her for a
When would you choose for your child to die?
PLEASE, don't tell me God never gives us more than
we can bear.
PLEASE, just say you're sorry.
PLEASE, just say you remember my child, if you do.
PLEASE, just let me talk about my child.
PLEASE, mention my child's name.
PLEASE, just let me CRY.