My Dearest Heidi...we can't believe this is true still...

Why aren't you still here? Its your Birthday and you are

supposed to be here with Daddy, me and Scott.

From Mom:

My heart is with you, my darling daughter...

you will always be my life. I will always think of you...

  every day...not a day goes by that I don't think of you.

And still after all this time...there isn't a day goes by that I don't cry.

I need you...you are my only daughter.

I need you more than I could ever put into words.

I know that you would have had some Grandbabies for Daddy

and I by now...I picture it often.

The fun we would have had...unbelievable!!!

I started sewing again. and got some special fabric today...

from Hong Kong...and when I opened it, I cried because

I pictured you in this beautiful dress made from it.

I didn't think it would be soooo beautiful!

It is gold with beautiful colored dragonflies all over it!

Daddy even could picture you in it.

You looked so beautiful in everything, and I loved sewing for you.

Daddy has been so good...so understanding...

he wishes you and I were together...

he is a good man, your Daddy.

Sometimes I wonder...what will happen to this site

when I am gone...

Will someone take it over and keep it up?

I never want you to be forgotten, Heidi...not EVER!

I can't even bare the thought of it!

Its so hard to believe that you are 27 years old now!

I don't know where the time has gone!

I just know how much I miss you!

Life can never be the same without you, Heidi.

I can't even imagine what it will be like

when we are all together again...You, Scott, Daddy and I.  I do know

that it will beautiful, and it will be for eternity.

You are my love...always and for eternity, Mommy

We keep a candle burning in ever window for you, my love.

I will love you for Eternity,

Mommy

From Daddy:

Can it really be six years since we celebrated your 21st Birthday, Heidi?

Why does it seem like just yesterday?

 The joy I felt watching you and your Mom sitting together...

opening your presents at your surprise party...

its a vision I carry in my heart.

Those days were supposed to go on and on...

the laughter and the joy that was still ahead...

who could see it all come crashing down in just a few short months?

The many dreams will remain just that...

dreams of what might have been...what was supposed to be.

Its hard to picture you as a 27 year old woman...

probably married, and with how many children?

I often dream of the joy that would be in this house

as we all gathered for Holidays.

If I could, I would trade places with you Heidi.

I would be happy knowing that you and your Mom were still

 together...laughing and sharing your "secrets" again...

your children running around the house on Christmas Day

or hunting for eggs on Easter Sunday.

The joy in our house could only be imagined. And perhaps

I could still be watching.

Dreams...that is what remains now.

 Dreams that cannot come true.

 Dreams of what was to be.

 You will always be in our hearts and dreams.

 So...Happy Birthday Heidi...

in our hearts and minds you are celebrating with us,

and you will always be no more than a thought away.

Love, Daddy

A Special Birthday

(author unknown)

Please God, Make them remember that today is a

Special Birthday!

Make them understand that the memories don't go away.

Enable them to listen while I share.

Shelter them so they may never know my pain.

Help them to know that my Heidi's life

was not in vain.

Help them to remember,

Lord I wish...

That Heidi was here so we could still celebrate.

To understand that I still feel the nearness of Heidi.

To see beyond my smile, and the words, "I'm Okay".

Please God...let one remember today...

is a Special Birthday!!!

Its my Heidi's Birthday, and that's very important!

She is a part of us, and she always will be!!

Happy Birthday Heidi!

y Cemetery

In a quiet country cemetery,
Where the gentle breezes blow,
Lies my Heidi we love so dearly;
She died a few years ago.

Her resting place we visit,
Placing flowers there with care,
But no one knows our heartache,
When we turn to leave them there.

Though her smile is gone forever,
And her hands we cannot touch,
Still we have so many memories
Of the daughter we loved so much.

Her memory is our keepsake,
With which we will never part.
God has her in His keeping;
We have her in our hearts.

~Author Unknown~

PLEASE, don't ask me if I'm over it yet.
I'll never be over it.
PLEASE, don't tell me she's in a better place.
She isn't here with me.

PLEASE, don't tell me you know how I feel,
unless you have lost a child.

PLEASE, don't ask me if I feel better.
Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.
PLEASE, don't tell me at least you had her for a little while.
When would you choose for your child to die?

PLEASE, don't tell me God never gives us more than we can bear.
PLEASE, just say you're sorry.
PLEASE, just say you remember my child, if you do.
PLEASE, just let me talk about my child.
PLEASE, mention my child's name.
PLEASE, just let me CRY.

~Author Unknown~