My Dearest Heidi,

Its very hard for me to realize that it has been 12 years since I saw your beautiful face,

and heard your contagious laugh. That's a lot of tears.

Honestly, I never thought I would have been strong enough without you to get through.

It has gotten a little easier, but I rarely get through a day without crying.

I think of you it seems a million times every day. I crave the time we had together,

I miss every Holiday and Birthday we spent,

I miss the words, "Hi Mom, I'm home!" I miss your phone calls when you would get

 home from work, and we weren't here..."Where are you?, you would say..."Ill be

 there!" And if we weren't out of town, you were.

If it was during the week, you would stop at the salon a lot and on the weekends, you

 were here most of the time.

You never missed a Holiday or picnic or any special occasion at home.

This is when I really start having my worst time...October through the Holidays.

This is when my heart is the most fragile. I become tired and weary. I want "us" back.

I want to be happy once again.

My life seems so empty without you.

I talk to you, and pray that you can hear me, but I sure wish that you could answer

 me. There is so much I want to tell you, and want more than anything to hear your voice.

You were so special, my Heidi.

I miss you so much. God Bless you, my darling daughter.

I love you, honey...for eternity,

Mom


"Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again"


You were once my one companion
You were all that mattered
You were once a friend and daughter
Then my world was shattered

Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed
Somehow you would be here

Wishing I could hear your voice again
Knowing that I never would
Dreaming of you won't help me to do
All that you dreamed I could

Passing bells and sculpted angels
Cold and monumental
Seem for you the wrong companions
You were warm and gentle

Too many years fighting back tears
Why can't the past just die?

Wishing you were somehow here again
Knowing we must say goodbye
Try to forgive, teach me to live
Give me the strength to try

No more memories, no more silent tears
No more gazing across the wasted years

Help me say goodbye!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you so much Saralyn for the song

11/01/2012 09:44:31 PM

 

 

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